The Calm before the storm.

So today I came to a huge life changing conclusion. I.NEED.TO.LOSE.WEIGHT. Not only do I want to do it to look better, but I need to, for health issues. I have tried many times to lose weight, and it worked for the first week or 2, then i'd "reward" myself with a dinner out, or some brownies, and that led me back to failure. This time, no more "treats" no more "rewards" there will be blood, sweat and tears, and there will be results. Now I thought of the best motivation that i know would make me lose weight. And that is, ladies and gentlemen, putting my current weight on the internet for everyone and anyone to see. In doing this, I will have extreme motivation to push myself towards my goal. In this blogpost, i will post my measurements, clothing sizes, and weight. And include pictures no matter how disgusting they may be. I need to be humiliated in order to kick my own ass and work hard. So here goes nothing.

Height: 5'3"
Weight: 204.6 lbs. or 14.6 stone.
waist: 46"
bust: 44 1/2"
left "bicep" : 15 &1/2"
right "bicep": 15&1/2 "
left thigh: 27&1/2"
right thigh: 28"
neck: 15&1/4
Pants size: 16
shirt size: mostly extra large.

These measurements make me physically sick. I can barely walk up my fucking stairs to my room without losing my breath. I need to change this...for GOOD. To everyone who ever called me names, made fun of me, doubted me in anything i could do, thank you, you are my other motivation. I will lose this weight, I will look sexy as fuck and you WILL all be jealous of me by the time I'm done. But more importantly, FUCK YOU. Any further questions? No? Good, Tomorrow i start tracking calories, and working out. Here is what I currently look like....

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My goal?
weight:130-140
Pant size: 6
to be able to run a mile without stopping
Feel secure about my apperance
Get more toned.
I would like the thought of junk food to make me sick.

My dream body. I hope to eventually look like in the end.

This is my first goal.  5'3" 135 lbs, size 6.